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Owarell's Journals - October 2011 (human time)
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WD 201100100002
Problems:
This morning was not good for Incy. I actually saw her cry, I did not think she was even capable of that. Her beloved
computer was not working, and she was freaking out. I told her we could always go find another, but she did not want a new one, she wanted her one with all of her "stuff". Honestly, I am afraid to look and see what kind of "stuff" she has stored on that thing. I wish she worried about me that much.
She got it fixed eventually, and was happy again. Only problem is that it works now, and she is always doing stuff on there, when I would rather her be doing stuff to me. I looked over her shoulder once, she has an awful lot of pictures of different Wraith.
This worries me.
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Due to the troubles of keeping an eye on Incy, I had a small conversation with Bob, and he had a great idea. Inject them with some
Wraith DNA, then we can find them really easy (and spy on their thoughts haha) I was almost thinking of not doing it because, well, it is rather sneaky, but, I went for it. I telepathically made Incy think that Erik needed her help in the lab, so she went down there with no problem! She isn't feeling too well right now, but Erik assures me that this shall pass in a day or two. He said to let her get a lot of
sleep. She's sleeping right now actually. I think she's adorable sleeping, all curled up. I wonder if Leeta is faring any better. Bob
had her injected as well. Maybe he can keep her away from Astor that way.
I wonder if she will find out about this...and if so, how mad she will be. Can I convince her she is not mad at me? Not sure how
far this telepathy thing goes for suggestion, I need to practice a bit.
I really want to go curl up next to her, but unfortunately, I have a big pile of reports to fill out, since I haven't been doing them.
I hate reports, so annoying and time consuming. It may not be bad if they were reports for something exciting, but no, I get stupid missions. My last mission for Todd was to go get paper cups for the worshippers. Yeah, stupid huh? I had to do a report for that as well. I am really starting to think everyone is making fun of me behind my back and sending me on stupid missions just for a laugh.
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WD 201100100003
I am an idiot:
Short post. I really am stupid Owarell. I followed what I thought was good advice, but it seems to have backfired.
I for some reason stupidly thought she would only hear and obey me. It seems others can make her do things as well. This is not what I wanted. I just wanted to be able to keep track of her, and know what she was thinking, and have her know how I was feeling, without having to say it.
Erik says she can learn to control it to block other Wraith out, so, I will work helping her with that. Hopefully that will help with her headaches as well.
I am still pretty angry at the way she acted though. Having to flirt in front of me. With Aurora no less. I am not even going to go into that story, but there is a bit of history there....and, it was rather enjoyable for her. I do not like this. She is currently on lockdown, and shall remain there until I figure out what to do.
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WD 201100100004
Extremely crappy day:
So, this telepathy thing, it may be a problem. Incy is actually picking up on controlling it fairly quickly. She can contact select people instead of just sending out a basic message to everyone. I am not sure I like that. I guess at least she is not mad at me, I think that is the only good thing to come of today.
Unfortunately, Eddie found out about it, and told Astor. They were both over here causing trouble. They are older than me and better at the telepathy. I do not know if they can control her or not. Luckily she was locked up when they got here. I just feel so horrible now. I was going to punish her for her attitude and anger this morning, but I just do not even have it in me now. It is my fault anyway for being sneaky. It really hurt when Astor called me weak. Maybe I am.
I feel so stupid. I was angry at Aurora for something that happened before I met Incy. He is actually really nice, he tried to help me with the Astor problem. He has not even made a move on Incy. I know how he thinks of her, and he wants to be with her again, but he has been really respectful of me. I need to be nicer to him. I cannot believe he let Incy out of the room though. I am so scared for her right now, because she did something really stupid. She got in Astor's face and was yelling at him, and even slapped him. I hope she does not end up being in serious trouble later. He ranks much higher than me. Yeah, me, the stupid paper cup mission idiot that cannot even do paperwork correctly. I am worthless.
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WD 201100100005
Quiet Day:
Today was very quiet around here. The obnoxious crew did not show up, as Incy would say YAY!!!! I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. She was so sweet last night and ran me a nice bath and just was....nice. We both slept in late, and did not get much done
today at all. I did get the one report done I needed to do, because Incy kept bugging me about it every 5 nanoseconds. Alright, maybe it was not that often, but she kept reminding me, so I did it so she would shut up about it. I think tonight we shall have some of the wraithy brew, and sleep late again.
I signed up for the DC mission. I hope it goes well. I really do not want to be on a big failure one again, otherwise I will end up with more paper cup missions, and that is just embarrassing. I have not really seen Bob or Leeta much today, they may have been hung over from the wraithy brews.
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WD 201100100006
I hate everything:
I was training/practicing with Bob yesterday on how to block certain Wraith from telepathically contacting Incy. It was really hard, but I think I have the hang of it now. The big problem, is that when I got done with training, Incy was gone, along with Leeta.
Rocky came to get the girls. I do not know how the hell he got Incy to go, she is usually good at not just taking off, as a matter of fact, she has never just taken off. Now I cannot contact her at all, and I do not know why. I assume someone is blocking me, but I
sure it is not Incy, she would not do that.
I asked Sally for permission to leave the hive to go retrieve her (not sure if I even need permission) but I am about ready to leave anyway.
I cannot find Bob anywhere either, I think he is really really mad. I almost feel sorry for Leeta when she gets back, she is going to be in serious trouble. I am really mad at Incy, but I think when I see her I will just be happy to see her and not be as mad. She will get some sort of punishment though.
I really hate that other hive.
Update:
Whatever:
I got Incy back. I shall post later maybe about what happened. I really hate Rocky right now. I cannot look at Incy without feeling like I am going to cry. Shut up, I am allowed to have emotions. I did not say I was going to, I said I felt like I would.
I do not know what to do. Bob is not speaking to anyone. Incy is passed out. Leeta is avoiding both Bob and I. Rocky....this is his fault.
There is no one to talk to. I should just go fly my dart and shoot at things.
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What a day:
I am much calmer now. I talked to Rocky, and had him undo what he did. I am still mad at him, I do not know if I will ever forgive him. It is not fun when one of your friends does something like that to you. *sigh* Oddly, I feel bad for him at the same time. He
feels really bad about the whole thing. Such a dilemma. I swear we are on the drama hive.
I went out in my dart and shot at stuff. I took out a couple of those Tau'ri satelites, it felt good to blow some stuff up. I then went down to the planet and blew up a couple of buildings, and some tall thing the humans get fuel from. It exploded nicely, luckily my dart is quick, otherwise I probably would have been caught in the explosion. I was flying over a field and saw some dirty looking Tau'ri sitting in a circle hitting these round things. I thought it was stupid, so I culled them. They are now in cocoons. I also blew up one of their bridges before heading back to the sky, and home. I hope no one yells at me, I just needed to get out some aggression. I know, I have issues. "stupid Owarell" whatever.
I got back, and Incy was sleeping. She is still sleeping. I am not mad at her anymore, it was partly her fault, it was partly Rocky's fault, and it was partly my fault. I have been too overbearing and jealous and acting like a fool. I know she is supposed to do things for me, but tonight, I think I am going to run her a nice bath, and even light some of those candle things she likes.
It is time I grow up.
Mission tomorrow! or is it the next day? I forgot already.
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201100100007
Slow Day:
Today has been rather uneventful. Incy did not feel well at all, and was looking a bit pale. I gave her the breath of life, just a bit and at least she was not as pale. She still slept for a long time though. I was supposed to head out on mission today, but I switched to go tomorrow. I wanted to stay and keep an eye on her. I brought all of my reports to the room and worked on them in there, so they all got done! Yes, I finished all of my reports. I then gave them to Desmond, I hope he took them where they were supposed to go.....
After that, I just curled up with Incy and watched her sleep. I actually fell asleep for awhile myself. I did not realize I was tired. She was still sleeping when I woke up. I was getting a bit worried, then thought about it for a few. She has been through a lot the past few days, with the DNA, and the mind trickery (thanks Rocky) and a lot of stress, so, I am sure she is just exhausted.
Tomorrow we invade DC! so excited, my first real mission since the failed Atlantis one. No one will be able to call me stupid or make fun of me for paper cup missions anymore. I plan on taking out a few buildings, and culling some tasty humans. I should probably cull some of their military people for Sally, as she does not like politicians. I have a note taped in my cockpit to remember vodka as well. Hopefully the entire trip goes well. It will be nice to blow some stuff up and burn off some more aggression. I think everyone here needs it. Unfortunately, they did not all sign up. I do not know who to have keep an eye on Incy, because Gordon, Bob, Aurora, and Desmond are all going as well. I just do not want to have to worry in case those iratusasses from the other hive show up over here when we are gone. I would not put it past them to do something sleazy and sneaky like that.
Well, I should quit writing, and go check on Incy again, possibly try to wake her up. Still unsure whether to do that or just let her sleep. Although, if I let her continue to sleep, and she is all rested, I am sure I will get a great homecoming present after the mission if you know what I mean
Yes Bob, I know she is mine and I can just have her whenever I want, but I still think it would be nice to have her really happy to see me and...I do not know, run to greet me or something.
I just realized how lame that sounds. Oh well, I am leaving it. Go ahead and make fun of me, I do not care.
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WD 201100100009
Whatever. Kill me:
So, I guess Eddie went whining to his queen, who came to our queen, who decided it was a good idea to send my and Bob's worshippers to that fucking sleaze hive. I cannot describe the feeling when they took her away. Imagine someone ripping a chunk or your chest out, I think that describes it fairly well. I could not even breath, and generally felt ill. I think I lay on the floor of my room
for hours. I still have not seen Bob, I do not know how he is faring. He has shut himself off.
I cannot sense her, they have blocked her from me. I feel lost. There are papers all over my room. Reports I need to get done. I do not care, they can kick me off of the hive. They can send me out of an airlock for all I care right now. Why the hell is this happening.
Make fun of me. I do not care. You can all die.
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Good and bad:
Went with Bob and Desmond to get the girls. The mission went well. I kind of have to laugh at what Bob did now. He set up a "self destruct" but, instead of blowing up their hive, it played horrible annoying music. I stunned Eddie, twice, almost got Astor. I
think Bob got him though. I had to stun Incy because she was out of her mind and did not believe I was me....long story.
Made it to Mina's hive, which is where we shall be staying now. Bob and Leeta are also here. We cannot return to Sally's hive because we went against orders. They were messed up orders to begin with.
Aurora helped me with Incy. Erik helped a little too, but I think he is more concerned with some testing/experimenting he is doing. I am not even going to go into what was done to her, but I will say it was very cruel. I have been assured she will be fine in time, but you know how little patience I have. She is currently sleeping very soundly, and probably will be for a day or two. I cannot help but go check on her every five minuets it seems. I am glad she is back.
One good note, it is nice to not have Steve hairs everywhere.
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Party?
Incy has set up a birthday party for Desmond. I do not understand this concept, but if it makes her happy, then so be it. I am
still quite worried. She is acting like everything is fine, like nothing happened. She forgets, I can read her mind, and she is trying
to ignore the whole thing and pretend it did not happen. I wonder, If I should try to block it, or erase it...... I am not that experienced
though. I am not even sure if that is a good idea. Maybe I should ask Bob for advice in this matter.
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201100100013
dammit:
Well, I found out earlier that Eddie and Astor were back. I got a message from Rocky. I guess Incy has been communicating with
him, and let him know that those idiots were floating around in space.
Once again, she is locked in the room. I've taken her computer away from her and disconnected the com. Tonight, she shall be punished very well. I have a new belt that could use a bit of breaking in. I could also use a really nice worshipping in the shower. Hmmm, my boots need polishing as well.
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201100100014
Great:
The idiots are back. I guess they are both going on the damn planet trip. I am not happy about this at all. I am taking an
extra stunner with me, in case I need to shoot two idiots at the same time. I wonder if we can bury them under a tree......
Incy got some rather....stiff punishment last night. I think she may behave.....or not. I think she likes punishment time a bit too much.
I think I saw Jimmy skulking about, that guy is so weird. So quiet. What the hell does he do all of the time anyway?
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WTF?:
Incy, is really in trouble now. Tonight I shall have no mercy on her. She will learn who she belongs to and quit with these stupid games. I have been more than patient and kind. The last thing I need is her taking off all the time like Bob's worshipper. I see what
that is doing to him and it is starting to piss me off. I left him some new ropes, his were looking a bit mangled. Hopefully he can teach his woman some manners. Damn worshippers.
I even agreed to go on a stupid trip with her. I am actually starting to think of killing every Wraith she even looks at. This is not good. I need to get my anger under control.
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201100100015
I win:
Well, I finally showed Incy who was boss. You would be proud of me Bob.
After I woke up in the drinking den, I went back to the room, and I can't believe she was loose! Needless to say, I was rather angry with her, and I taught her a lesson. I do not think she expected that from me, and she may still be a bit in shock. I almost feel bad because I broke one of her ribs, but I did give her enough life force to heal her up a little bit. Oh, not all the way, I left her with enough pain to last her a few days so she does not forget who her master is. Believe me, she now knows exactly who that is. I even got her to kiss my boots. Hah! She did not even roll her eyes, backtalk, laugh, or say anything. She just did as she was told without questioning it. About damn time. She may be a bit quiet for a few days, and she knows if she messes up again that bad, it will be worse. Maybe now she will learn to not make me angry. I still cannot believe I was that angry. It was an almost uncontrollable rage.
I am going to have her train tomorrow with either Rocky or Aurora, not sure which, but she needs to learn to block herself from idiots like Eddie. Ok, mainly him. I hate that guy. I should have killed him instead of just stunning his worthless green ass.
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201100100017
new day:
Well, the past few days have been interesting to say the least. I have been moody, angry, full of rage, and completely lost. I
thought I was going to lose it last night. I wanted to go blow stuff up, but then I decided I did not want to go, then I could not make up my mind. I ended up just sitting in my dart, thinking, and remembering things I did not wish to remember. I do not know how long I was out there, but I was feeling pretty down, and then Incy was there. She searched my thoughts while I was lost in them, and now knows how much of a loser I am, but for some reason she does not see me as such. She is a weird one. Most worshippers clamor for the honorable Wraith, the high ranking, etc. She does not care about any of that. I feel so much better today, even though my mind is still in a lot of different directions at once.
Bob is going to get us kicked out of here if he does not stop destroying all of the ceilings around here. Desmond said he would gather the drones and fix what they could before Mina notices.
Going down to the planet tomorrow for some relaxation. Incy found a nice lake to relax by. I hope Bob and Leeta will come. I have already packed some food for the girls, some wraithy wine, and a few bottles of wraithy brew. Speaking of Bob....I never really know if
that guy likes me or not. I am assuming he does not hate me, because he is nicer to me than most Wraith, and does not call me a loser. It is nice that he does not call me "Stupid Owarell".
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201100100018
accomplished:
I got a little bit of fighting lessons from Bob yesterday, and I think I did alright! I am up really early, Incy is still sleeping....I think... Anyway, spent a long time thinking last night, fell asleep, brain still going. remembering everything I wanted to forget is actually kind of helping. I understand now, that I am not like everyone else, and probably never will be. Incy thinks I am perfectly fine the way I am, so I am going to try to stop worrying about it.
Later today we are going on a trip down to the planet with Bob and Leeta. It should be nice. Maybe get in a little practice...
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201100100019
What the Iratus?:
Weirdness last night. I actually did something I thought I would never do....concerning Incy. Yeah, not going much more into it, but I think I rather liked it. Anyway, everyone in the drinking lounge was acting very strange, and things happened after almost everyone else left......
I took Erik a sample of the the brew and the brandy. I think someone did something to this last batch of brew, and possibly the brandy. My best guess would be Michael, as he is really weird and is always up to something nefarious.
Seriously, everyone was acting weird. Thor and Betty were plastered, Todd was...plastered and DANCING, and Bob...wow, Bob saw
something that would usually make him throw a grenade in the room then beat the green stuffing out of everyone in it....but all he did was throw 2 chairs and sit down. there was definitely something up.
Planet trip with the girls and Bob today! I am going to practice my new secret move, hopefully Bob will be proud of me, we have been training at night when the girls are sleeping. I am actually getting pretty good at fighting!
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201100100020
Planet Trip:
I did not realize our coms on the darts could get WJ! Figured I would get in a quick update. Incy is sleeping next to the fire. I am a bit chilly, it is kind of cold down here. I think I am about ready to go curl up next to her to keep warm, she has my coat.
The trip has gone...good and bad. I managed to pull a surprise attack on Bob! I know, I did not think it would work, I figured he
would be able to...I do not know, find me somehow. He is amazing. But I hid in a tree and jumped down and knocked him back pretty good. I hope I did not hit him too hard, I felt kind of bad. He came at me with a knife and I was like, uh oh, but then he carved a symbol in my hand and said we are now brothers! That makes me really happy. I remember back when no one liked me or wanted me around. Then I ended up on Gordon's ship with him and Stephan. They both kind of adopted me as their little brother. As silly as it may sound, it made me very happy. Now I have three brothers, and a wonderful worshipper. I am a very lucky Wraith
indeed.
Bad part of trip...I was out gathering some wood for the fire. I know, "why did you not send your worshipper" well, I did not
send her because there are big animals out there. I can kill them, or beat them up, she cannot. So, I left her with my stunner at camp, Thor was there, so I figured she would be ok. So, I was gathering stuff, and I heard a dart and headed back to camp as fast as I could. By time I got there, the situation was diffused, but it was a bad situation. Right now Michael and Fred are tied together waiting for Bob to get back so we can decide what to do with them. I cannot believe they found us! Even worse as they felt the need to try to ruin a perfectly good little vacation. I have stunned Fred twice now, and Michael five times. Thor said I was a bit trigger happy, but if I think I see them move, better to be safe and just stun them right?
Well, I will update when I get back to the hive. I am going to go curl up with my Incy. I probably will not sleep though, I need to keep an eye on those creeps.
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home again:
Just got back a little while ago from the planet. Hehe, autopilot is nice.....Bob and Leeta finally made it back to camp. Leeta was really freaked out, which is understandable, that Fred guy is uglier than a splattered iratus bug. I think I may have stunned Michael a few more times, but I am sure he was moving.... Anyway, Bob and I put them in a cave and put a huge rock in front of the entrance. Hopefully they will just die there. I do not trust either of them, and I fear that if left to roam about, they may try to kidnap our women. I am sure that is why they followed us to the planet anyway.
I think later today, I need to give Incy some real stunner lessons. Maybe I will talk to Bob, and have him send Leeta as well. It would not hurt to have them both armed when we are not around. I know Desmond keeps an eye on them, but he cannot always be here either.
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201100100023
what a week:
I am a dumbass. I spent a few days in a cell, dragged Bob into my stupid mess.
All started when I snapped and surprise attacked Eddie, stabbing him repeatedly. Ended up in a cell, that was not fun. Then Bob came to see me and got stuck in the cell when one of his stun grenades fell out of his pocket. Incy had to make a horrible agreement with Eddie so my green ass would not be put to death. I finally get released, and got into it with Steve. I then got mad at Incy and almost hit her, but then Jimmy kicked my ass. I am now in therapy.
I feel like I am a big disappointment to everyone right now, but I am trying to improve. Working with Greg earlier today was actually quite nice. He is very wise, and amazingly calm and friendly. He also has some great stories just like Bob. Anyway, he is teaching me meditation, to calm myself. Hopefully this works, because right now, no one is very happy with me.
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201100100025
So this has been quite the whirlwind week. I got in more trouble... Steve annoyed me really bad, and I was going to kick his worthless green butt, but Jimmy made me leave the counseling room. Then Incy got mad at me, and she slapped me. Again, I got mad and was going to knock her down the damn corridor, when Jimmy came out and kicked my green ass. Seriously, he beat the Wraithy stuffing out of me. *sigh* I know.....Jimmy, who would have thought he was such a badass. I don't think he hardly moved...he just beat my ass standing in one spot!
So, after that fiasco.... we come to yesterday, where we got a new Wraith, it turns out he is my blood brother! I have...family. I am still a bit in shock. I don't really know what to say on this matter, so I will keep it short.
Then today, Astor the fucking iratus ass set some bombs in Bob's room...and knocked us all out and took Leeta. By time I
woke up, Incy was gone. She went to go find Leeta. Erik went with her because she figured she could just....take off and automatically fly a dart.... They came back, she tortured the poor guy with..well, you know how she is. I sent her off to take care of him. I felt a bit bad for him. I know... wti owarell. oh well.
I did find out stuff about Incy! I had no idea she was a warrior on her planet! Like, a commander of an army warrior! After she got caught, she got in trouble on her first try as a worshipper, and was a runner for many many years until Eddie claimed her. No wonder she is so damn defiant. I wouldn't change her for anything though.
So, then Bob finds a signal today, and brings in this other Wraith and some wreckage....turns out it was the commander that put me in hibernation forever....I wanted to say something, or beat the stuffing out of him, but Odin wouldn't let me. As a matter of fact, Odin is keeping me away from him, and will not talk about him either. I do know that Odin is very very angry at him, but I do not understand. He has...actual rage toward the guy, but he keeps blocking his thoughts on the matter......so strange.
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201100100028
So, it has been a busy week, and I have not had a lot of time to post anything. I am going to keep it short though, as....I do not wish to remember things in detail of what has happened.
Remember that Wraith I was speaking of, the one that put me in hibernation? well, turns out he was my father. Yeah. great huh? So the other day, he attacks me, and I almost died. I guess I had over 20 stab wounds, and he had two blades completely through me, sticking into the floor. I could have dealt with the physical pain just fine. The worst part is that my own father thought I was so worthless and such an embarrassment that he wanted me dead. I tried to call for help but the only one I could contact was Incy. Luckily Bob was able to figure out where i was,and saved my ass ... once again.
I couldn't think of what to do for him to repay him, so..... I gave him the dagger I made long ago. I worked with a smith on a planet that I was on, in secret of course. I made a few things there. The dagger meant a lot though, I spent a lot of time on it. I had made it, so that when eventually I found my father, I could give it to him, and hopefully he would be proud of me. Well, we know how the father thing went. I figured, Bob deserves it more than my father ever did. Granted he didn't like me when I got here, but I didn't like myself, I was a dumbass. He has turned into a great friend though, and, I actually kinda think of him as my father. Don't tell him that, he will call me stupid or something....
So, we come to today. We just moved to Betty's hive. Too much jail and trouble over on Mina's. She doesnt' take any crap from anyone, and it was a bit strict over there. Granted I have to deal with Eddie....but...whatever, I'll figure out how to handle that problem eventually. Leeta and Bob moved over too, not sure why though.
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Problems:
This morning was not good for Incy. I actually saw her cry, I did not think she was even capable of that. Her beloved
computer was not working, and she was freaking out. I told her we could always go find another, but she did not want a new one, she wanted her one with all of her "stuff". Honestly, I am afraid to look and see what kind of "stuff" she has stored on that thing. I wish she worried about me that much.
She got it fixed eventually, and was happy again. Only problem is that it works now, and she is always doing stuff on there, when I would rather her be doing stuff to me. I looked over her shoulder once, she has an awful lot of pictures of different Wraith.
This worries me.
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Due to the troubles of keeping an eye on Incy, I had a small conversation with Bob, and he had a great idea. Inject them with some
Wraith DNA, then we can find them really easy (and spy on their thoughts haha) I was almost thinking of not doing it because, well, it is rather sneaky, but, I went for it. I telepathically made Incy think that Erik needed her help in the lab, so she went down there with no problem! She isn't feeling too well right now, but Erik assures me that this shall pass in a day or two. He said to let her get a lot of
sleep. She's sleeping right now actually. I think she's adorable sleeping, all curled up. I wonder if Leeta is faring any better. Bob
had her injected as well. Maybe he can keep her away from Astor that way.
I wonder if she will find out about this...and if so, how mad she will be. Can I convince her she is not mad at me? Not sure how
far this telepathy thing goes for suggestion, I need to practice a bit.
I really want to go curl up next to her, but unfortunately, I have a big pile of reports to fill out, since I haven't been doing them.
I hate reports, so annoying and time consuming. It may not be bad if they were reports for something exciting, but no, I get stupid missions. My last mission for Todd was to go get paper cups for the worshippers. Yeah, stupid huh? I had to do a report for that as well. I am really starting to think everyone is making fun of me behind my back and sending me on stupid missions just for a laugh.
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WD 201100100003
I am an idiot:
Short post. I really am stupid Owarell. I followed what I thought was good advice, but it seems to have backfired.
I for some reason stupidly thought she would only hear and obey me. It seems others can make her do things as well. This is not what I wanted. I just wanted to be able to keep track of her, and know what she was thinking, and have her know how I was feeling, without having to say it.
Erik says she can learn to control it to block other Wraith out, so, I will work helping her with that. Hopefully that will help with her headaches as well.
I am still pretty angry at the way she acted though. Having to flirt in front of me. With Aurora no less. I am not even going to go into that story, but there is a bit of history there....and, it was rather enjoyable for her. I do not like this. She is currently on lockdown, and shall remain there until I figure out what to do.
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WD 201100100004
Extremely crappy day:
So, this telepathy thing, it may be a problem. Incy is actually picking up on controlling it fairly quickly. She can contact select people instead of just sending out a basic message to everyone. I am not sure I like that. I guess at least she is not mad at me, I think that is the only good thing to come of today.
Unfortunately, Eddie found out about it, and told Astor. They were both over here causing trouble. They are older than me and better at the telepathy. I do not know if they can control her or not. Luckily she was locked up when they got here. I just feel so horrible now. I was going to punish her for her attitude and anger this morning, but I just do not even have it in me now. It is my fault anyway for being sneaky. It really hurt when Astor called me weak. Maybe I am.
I feel so stupid. I was angry at Aurora for something that happened before I met Incy. He is actually really nice, he tried to help me with the Astor problem. He has not even made a move on Incy. I know how he thinks of her, and he wants to be with her again, but he has been really respectful of me. I need to be nicer to him. I cannot believe he let Incy out of the room though. I am so scared for her right now, because she did something really stupid. She got in Astor's face and was yelling at him, and even slapped him. I hope she does not end up being in serious trouble later. He ranks much higher than me. Yeah, me, the stupid paper cup mission idiot that cannot even do paperwork correctly. I am worthless.
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WD 201100100005
Quiet Day:
Today was very quiet around here. The obnoxious crew did not show up, as Incy would say YAY!!!! I feel a lot better than I did yesterday. She was so sweet last night and ran me a nice bath and just was....nice. We both slept in late, and did not get much done
today at all. I did get the one report done I needed to do, because Incy kept bugging me about it every 5 nanoseconds. Alright, maybe it was not that often, but she kept reminding me, so I did it so she would shut up about it. I think tonight we shall have some of the wraithy brew, and sleep late again.
I signed up for the DC mission. I hope it goes well. I really do not want to be on a big failure one again, otherwise I will end up with more paper cup missions, and that is just embarrassing. I have not really seen Bob or Leeta much today, they may have been hung over from the wraithy brews.
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WD 201100100006
I hate everything:
I was training/practicing with Bob yesterday on how to block certain Wraith from telepathically contacting Incy. It was really hard, but I think I have the hang of it now. The big problem, is that when I got done with training, Incy was gone, along with Leeta.
Rocky came to get the girls. I do not know how the hell he got Incy to go, she is usually good at not just taking off, as a matter of fact, she has never just taken off. Now I cannot contact her at all, and I do not know why. I assume someone is blocking me, but I
sure it is not Incy, she would not do that.
I asked Sally for permission to leave the hive to go retrieve her (not sure if I even need permission) but I am about ready to leave anyway.
I cannot find Bob anywhere either, I think he is really really mad. I almost feel sorry for Leeta when she gets back, she is going to be in serious trouble. I am really mad at Incy, but I think when I see her I will just be happy to see her and not be as mad. She will get some sort of punishment though.
I really hate that other hive.
Update:
Whatever:
I got Incy back. I shall post later maybe about what happened. I really hate Rocky right now. I cannot look at Incy without feeling like I am going to cry. Shut up, I am allowed to have emotions. I did not say I was going to, I said I felt like I would.
I do not know what to do. Bob is not speaking to anyone. Incy is passed out. Leeta is avoiding both Bob and I. Rocky....this is his fault.
There is no one to talk to. I should just go fly my dart and shoot at things.
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What a day:
I am much calmer now. I talked to Rocky, and had him undo what he did. I am still mad at him, I do not know if I will ever forgive him. It is not fun when one of your friends does something like that to you. *sigh* Oddly, I feel bad for him at the same time. He
feels really bad about the whole thing. Such a dilemma. I swear we are on the drama hive.
I went out in my dart and shot at stuff. I took out a couple of those Tau'ri satelites, it felt good to blow some stuff up. I then went down to the planet and blew up a couple of buildings, and some tall thing the humans get fuel from. It exploded nicely, luckily my dart is quick, otherwise I probably would have been caught in the explosion. I was flying over a field and saw some dirty looking Tau'ri sitting in a circle hitting these round things. I thought it was stupid, so I culled them. They are now in cocoons. I also blew up one of their bridges before heading back to the sky, and home. I hope no one yells at me, I just needed to get out some aggression. I know, I have issues. "stupid Owarell" whatever.
I got back, and Incy was sleeping. She is still sleeping. I am not mad at her anymore, it was partly her fault, it was partly Rocky's fault, and it was partly my fault. I have been too overbearing and jealous and acting like a fool. I know she is supposed to do things for me, but tonight, I think I am going to run her a nice bath, and even light some of those candle things she likes.
It is time I grow up.
Mission tomorrow! or is it the next day? I forgot already.
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201100100007
Slow Day:
Today has been rather uneventful. Incy did not feel well at all, and was looking a bit pale. I gave her the breath of life, just a bit and at least she was not as pale. She still slept for a long time though. I was supposed to head out on mission today, but I switched to go tomorrow. I wanted to stay and keep an eye on her. I brought all of my reports to the room and worked on them in there, so they all got done! Yes, I finished all of my reports. I then gave them to Desmond, I hope he took them where they were supposed to go.....
After that, I just curled up with Incy and watched her sleep. I actually fell asleep for awhile myself. I did not realize I was tired. She was still sleeping when I woke up. I was getting a bit worried, then thought about it for a few. She has been through a lot the past few days, with the DNA, and the mind trickery (thanks Rocky) and a lot of stress, so, I am sure she is just exhausted.
Tomorrow we invade DC! so excited, my first real mission since the failed Atlantis one. No one will be able to call me stupid or make fun of me for paper cup missions anymore. I plan on taking out a few buildings, and culling some tasty humans. I should probably cull some of their military people for Sally, as she does not like politicians. I have a note taped in my cockpit to remember vodka as well. Hopefully the entire trip goes well. It will be nice to blow some stuff up and burn off some more aggression. I think everyone here needs it. Unfortunately, they did not all sign up. I do not know who to have keep an eye on Incy, because Gordon, Bob, Aurora, and Desmond are all going as well. I just do not want to have to worry in case those iratusasses from the other hive show up over here when we are gone. I would not put it past them to do something sleazy and sneaky like that.
Well, I should quit writing, and go check on Incy again, possibly try to wake her up. Still unsure whether to do that or just let her sleep. Although, if I let her continue to sleep, and she is all rested, I am sure I will get a great homecoming present after the mission if you know what I mean
Yes Bob, I know she is mine and I can just have her whenever I want, but I still think it would be nice to have her really happy to see me and...I do not know, run to greet me or something. I just realized how lame that sounds. Oh well, I am leaving it. Go ahead and make fun of me, I do not care.
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WD 201100100009
Whatever. Kill me:
So, I guess Eddie went whining to his queen, who came to our queen, who decided it was a good idea to send my and Bob's worshippers to that fucking sleaze hive. I cannot describe the feeling when they took her away. Imagine someone ripping a chunk or your chest out, I think that describes it fairly well. I could not even breath, and generally felt ill. I think I lay on the floor of my room
for hours. I still have not seen Bob, I do not know how he is faring. He has shut himself off.
I cannot sense her, they have blocked her from me. I feel lost. There are papers all over my room. Reports I need to get done. I do not care, they can kick me off of the hive. They can send me out of an airlock for all I care right now. Why the hell is this happening.
Make fun of me. I do not care. You can all die.
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Good and bad:
Went with Bob and Desmond to get the girls. The mission went well. I kind of have to laugh at what Bob did now. He set up a "self destruct" but, instead of blowing up their hive, it played horrible annoying music. I stunned Eddie, twice, almost got Astor. I
think Bob got him though. I had to stun Incy because she was out of her mind and did not believe I was me....long story.
Made it to Mina's hive, which is where we shall be staying now. Bob and Leeta are also here. We cannot return to Sally's hive because we went against orders. They were messed up orders to begin with.
Aurora helped me with Incy. Erik helped a little too, but I think he is more concerned with some testing/experimenting he is doing. I am not even going to go into what was done to her, but I will say it was very cruel. I have been assured she will be fine in time, but you know how little patience I have. She is currently sleeping very soundly, and probably will be for a day or two. I cannot help but go check on her every five minuets it seems. I am glad she is back.
One good note, it is nice to not have Steve hairs everywhere.
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Party?
Incy has set up a birthday party for Desmond. I do not understand this concept, but if it makes her happy, then so be it. I am
still quite worried. She is acting like everything is fine, like nothing happened. She forgets, I can read her mind, and she is trying
to ignore the whole thing and pretend it did not happen. I wonder, If I should try to block it, or erase it...... I am not that experienced
though. I am not even sure if that is a good idea. Maybe I should ask Bob for advice in this matter.
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201100100013
dammit:
Well, I found out earlier that Eddie and Astor were back. I got a message from Rocky. I guess Incy has been communicating with
him, and let him know that those idiots were floating around in space.
Once again, she is locked in the room. I've taken her computer away from her and disconnected the com. Tonight, she shall be punished very well. I have a new belt that could use a bit of breaking in. I could also use a really nice worshipping in the shower. Hmmm, my boots need polishing as well.
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201100100014
Great:
The idiots are back. I guess they are both going on the damn planet trip. I am not happy about this at all. I am taking an
extra stunner with me, in case I need to shoot two idiots at the same time. I wonder if we can bury them under a tree......
Incy got some rather....stiff punishment last night. I think she may behave.....or not. I think she likes punishment time a bit too much.
I think I saw Jimmy skulking about, that guy is so weird. So quiet. What the hell does he do all of the time anyway?
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WTF?:
Incy, is really in trouble now. Tonight I shall have no mercy on her. She will learn who she belongs to and quit with these stupid games. I have been more than patient and kind. The last thing I need is her taking off all the time like Bob's worshipper. I see what
that is doing to him and it is starting to piss me off. I left him some new ropes, his were looking a bit mangled. Hopefully he can teach his woman some manners. Damn worshippers.
I even agreed to go on a stupid trip with her. I am actually starting to think of killing every Wraith she even looks at. This is not good. I need to get my anger under control.
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201100100015
I win:
Well, I finally showed Incy who was boss. You would be proud of me Bob.
After I woke up in the drinking den, I went back to the room, and I can't believe she was loose! Needless to say, I was rather angry with her, and I taught her a lesson. I do not think she expected that from me, and she may still be a bit in shock. I almost feel bad because I broke one of her ribs, but I did give her enough life force to heal her up a little bit. Oh, not all the way, I left her with enough pain to last her a few days so she does not forget who her master is. Believe me, she now knows exactly who that is. I even got her to kiss my boots. Hah! She did not even roll her eyes, backtalk, laugh, or say anything. She just did as she was told without questioning it. About damn time. She may be a bit quiet for a few days, and she knows if she messes up again that bad, it will be worse. Maybe now she will learn to not make me angry. I still cannot believe I was that angry. It was an almost uncontrollable rage.
I am going to have her train tomorrow with either Rocky or Aurora, not sure which, but she needs to learn to block herself from idiots like Eddie. Ok, mainly him. I hate that guy. I should have killed him instead of just stunning his worthless green ass.
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201100100017
new day:
Well, the past few days have been interesting to say the least. I have been moody, angry, full of rage, and completely lost. I
thought I was going to lose it last night. I wanted to go blow stuff up, but then I decided I did not want to go, then I could not make up my mind. I ended up just sitting in my dart, thinking, and remembering things I did not wish to remember. I do not know how long I was out there, but I was feeling pretty down, and then Incy was there. She searched my thoughts while I was lost in them, and now knows how much of a loser I am, but for some reason she does not see me as such. She is a weird one. Most worshippers clamor for the honorable Wraith, the high ranking, etc. She does not care about any of that. I feel so much better today, even though my mind is still in a lot of different directions at once.
Bob is going to get us kicked out of here if he does not stop destroying all of the ceilings around here. Desmond said he would gather the drones and fix what they could before Mina notices.
Going down to the planet tomorrow for some relaxation. Incy found a nice lake to relax by. I hope Bob and Leeta will come. I have already packed some food for the girls, some wraithy wine, and a few bottles of wraithy brew. Speaking of Bob....I never really know if
that guy likes me or not. I am assuming he does not hate me, because he is nicer to me than most Wraith, and does not call me a loser. It is nice that he does not call me "Stupid Owarell".
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201100100018
accomplished:
I got a little bit of fighting lessons from Bob yesterday, and I think I did alright! I am up really early, Incy is still sleeping....I think... Anyway, spent a long time thinking last night, fell asleep, brain still going. remembering everything I wanted to forget is actually kind of helping. I understand now, that I am not like everyone else, and probably never will be. Incy thinks I am perfectly fine the way I am, so I am going to try to stop worrying about it.
Later today we are going on a trip down to the planet with Bob and Leeta. It should be nice. Maybe get in a little practice...
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201100100019
What the Iratus?:
Weirdness last night. I actually did something I thought I would never do....concerning Incy. Yeah, not going much more into it, but I think I rather liked it. Anyway, everyone in the drinking lounge was acting very strange, and things happened after almost everyone else left......
I took Erik a sample of the the brew and the brandy. I think someone did something to this last batch of brew, and possibly the brandy. My best guess would be Michael, as he is really weird and is always up to something nefarious.
Seriously, everyone was acting weird. Thor and Betty were plastered, Todd was...plastered and DANCING, and Bob...wow, Bob saw
something that would usually make him throw a grenade in the room then beat the green stuffing out of everyone in it....but all he did was throw 2 chairs and sit down. there was definitely something up.
Planet trip with the girls and Bob today! I am going to practice my new secret move, hopefully Bob will be proud of me, we have been training at night when the girls are sleeping. I am actually getting pretty good at fighting!
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201100100020
Planet Trip:
I did not realize our coms on the darts could get WJ! Figured I would get in a quick update. Incy is sleeping next to the fire. I am a bit chilly, it is kind of cold down here. I think I am about ready to go curl up next to her to keep warm, she has my coat.
The trip has gone...good and bad. I managed to pull a surprise attack on Bob! I know, I did not think it would work, I figured he
would be able to...I do not know, find me somehow. He is amazing. But I hid in a tree and jumped down and knocked him back pretty good. I hope I did not hit him too hard, I felt kind of bad. He came at me with a knife and I was like, uh oh, but then he carved a symbol in my hand and said we are now brothers! That makes me really happy. I remember back when no one liked me or wanted me around. Then I ended up on Gordon's ship with him and Stephan. They both kind of adopted me as their little brother. As silly as it may sound, it made me very happy. Now I have three brothers, and a wonderful worshipper. I am a very lucky Wraith
indeed.
Bad part of trip...I was out gathering some wood for the fire. I know, "why did you not send your worshipper" well, I did not
send her because there are big animals out there. I can kill them, or beat them up, she cannot. So, I left her with my stunner at camp, Thor was there, so I figured she would be ok. So, I was gathering stuff, and I heard a dart and headed back to camp as fast as I could. By time I got there, the situation was diffused, but it was a bad situation. Right now Michael and Fred are tied together waiting for Bob to get back so we can decide what to do with them. I cannot believe they found us! Even worse as they felt the need to try to ruin a perfectly good little vacation. I have stunned Fred twice now, and Michael five times. Thor said I was a bit trigger happy, but if I think I see them move, better to be safe and just stun them right?
Well, I will update when I get back to the hive. I am going to go curl up with my Incy. I probably will not sleep though, I need to keep an eye on those creeps.
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home again:
Just got back a little while ago from the planet. Hehe, autopilot is nice.....Bob and Leeta finally made it back to camp. Leeta was really freaked out, which is understandable, that Fred guy is uglier than a splattered iratus bug. I think I may have stunned Michael a few more times, but I am sure he was moving.... Anyway, Bob and I put them in a cave and put a huge rock in front of the entrance. Hopefully they will just die there. I do not trust either of them, and I fear that if left to roam about, they may try to kidnap our women. I am sure that is why they followed us to the planet anyway.
I think later today, I need to give Incy some real stunner lessons. Maybe I will talk to Bob, and have him send Leeta as well. It would not hurt to have them both armed when we are not around. I know Desmond keeps an eye on them, but he cannot always be here either.
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201100100023
what a week:
I am a dumbass. I spent a few days in a cell, dragged Bob into my stupid mess.
All started when I snapped and surprise attacked Eddie, stabbing him repeatedly. Ended up in a cell, that was not fun. Then Bob came to see me and got stuck in the cell when one of his stun grenades fell out of his pocket. Incy had to make a horrible agreement with Eddie so my green ass would not be put to death. I finally get released, and got into it with Steve. I then got mad at Incy and almost hit her, but then Jimmy kicked my ass. I am now in therapy.
I feel like I am a big disappointment to everyone right now, but I am trying to improve. Working with Greg earlier today was actually quite nice. He is very wise, and amazingly calm and friendly. He also has some great stories just like Bob. Anyway, he is teaching me meditation, to calm myself. Hopefully this works, because right now, no one is very happy with me.
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201100100025
So this has been quite the whirlwind week. I got in more trouble... Steve annoyed me really bad, and I was going to kick his worthless green butt, but Jimmy made me leave the counseling room. Then Incy got mad at me, and she slapped me. Again, I got mad and was going to knock her down the damn corridor, when Jimmy came out and kicked my green ass. Seriously, he beat the Wraithy stuffing out of me. *sigh* I know.....Jimmy, who would have thought he was such a badass. I don't think he hardly moved...he just beat my ass standing in one spot!
So, after that fiasco.... we come to yesterday, where we got a new Wraith, it turns out he is my blood brother! I have...family. I am still a bit in shock. I don't really know what to say on this matter, so I will keep it short.
Then today, Astor the fucking iratus ass set some bombs in Bob's room...and knocked us all out and took Leeta. By time I
woke up, Incy was gone. She went to go find Leeta. Erik went with her because she figured she could just....take off and automatically fly a dart.... They came back, she tortured the poor guy with..well, you know how she is. I sent her off to take care of him. I felt a bit bad for him. I know... wti owarell. oh well.
I did find out stuff about Incy! I had no idea she was a warrior on her planet! Like, a commander of an army warrior! After she got caught, she got in trouble on her first try as a worshipper, and was a runner for many many years until Eddie claimed her. No wonder she is so damn defiant. I wouldn't change her for anything though.
So, then Bob finds a signal today, and brings in this other Wraith and some wreckage....turns out it was the commander that put me in hibernation forever....I wanted to say something, or beat the stuffing out of him, but Odin wouldn't let me. As a matter of fact, Odin is keeping me away from him, and will not talk about him either. I do know that Odin is very very angry at him, but I do not understand. He has...actual rage toward the guy, but he keeps blocking his thoughts on the matter......so strange.
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201100100028
So, it has been a busy week, and I have not had a lot of time to post anything. I am going to keep it short though, as....I do not wish to remember things in detail of what has happened.
Remember that Wraith I was speaking of, the one that put me in hibernation? well, turns out he was my father. Yeah. great huh? So the other day, he attacks me, and I almost died. I guess I had over 20 stab wounds, and he had two blades completely through me, sticking into the floor. I could have dealt with the physical pain just fine. The worst part is that my own father thought I was so worthless and such an embarrassment that he wanted me dead. I tried to call for help but the only one I could contact was Incy. Luckily Bob was able to figure out where i was,and saved my ass ... once again.
I couldn't think of what to do for him to repay him, so..... I gave him the dagger I made long ago. I worked with a smith on a planet that I was on, in secret of course. I made a few things there. The dagger meant a lot though, I spent a lot of time on it. I had made it, so that when eventually I found my father, I could give it to him, and hopefully he would be proud of me. Well, we know how the father thing went. I figured, Bob deserves it more than my father ever did. Granted he didn't like me when I got here, but I didn't like myself, I was a dumbass. He has turned into a great friend though, and, I actually kinda think of him as my father. Don't tell him that, he will call me stupid or something....
So, we come to today. We just moved to Betty's hive. Too much jail and trouble over on Mina's. She doesnt' take any crap from anyone, and it was a bit strict over there. Granted I have to deal with Eddie....but...whatever, I'll figure out how to handle that problem eventually. Leeta and Bob moved over too, not sure why though.
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